So I just deleted all of my online dating profiles. Yup....all four of them on different sites. I'm so over it. I started doing Match.com when I was 21. Then eHarmony. Then Christian Mingle. Then Plenty of Fish. It's been a fun seven years...but obviously I should have found someone worthwhile in seven years. So I don't think it's for me.
My sister met her husband on eHarmony within a month! I used to be jealous of that, but who really wants to meet someone online. Yeah, sure, you pay $59 on eHarmony and they send you matches. I'm sure some people really are compatible and that's good for them. But I want a story. Yes, I'm fascinated by stories of finding love. I have tons of books on just stories of people finding their mate. So do I really want a story like, "yeah, I just signed up for this online dating site....and logged in one day and there he was." Um no. That's stupid. Sorry, sis. I'm glad you found your soulmate, but that's not how I want to find mine.
I read a great book entitled "When God Winks on Love" and there were some amazing love stories in that book. So I'm not saying you can't find love online. Many people do. But it's not for me. I'm so over it. Sure, it's nice to meet new men and go to dinner and find out about them. But what if I rely on God to place that special someone in my path??? I think it will be interesting to see who He brings into my life. Or who knows....maybe God has already placed him in my life.....
I don't know what's in store for my life, but I do know that God has a plan. He says in Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
I'm excited to see what God has in store for me. And if you're sick of trying to find that Mr. or Ms. Right....then just Let Go and Let God. I love that saying. But it's true. I'm letting go of my search and letting God work out all the details.
I will update you and let you know how it all turns out! I'm so ready to have A Story!
♥
Beth
Monday, July 26, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
I Have A Hope
So I will be 28 next week. Twenty Eight. Sounds so old. I’m close to 30. Twenty Seven just sounds so much younger. 28 and Single sounds like I either have a commitment phobia or am a cat lady. HA!
I’ll get over it though. Not gonna dwell on the “I’m single and I hate it” topic. It bores me and no one wants to hear it. So let’s try another subject.
Kids.
Do I want to have them? I need to start deciding before my eggs dry up. I don’t really know if I want to have kids!!! Does anyone else have this problem? I know I would be a great mother. One of those cool moms who doesn’t drive a MiniVan. But after working with twelve adolescent teenage boys on a daily basis, it’s really made me consider having a child. UGHH….I don’t know. I guess I’ll just wait till I get a man, then decide. You know, depending on the guy, I would have to ask myself…”Is this the man I want my kids to spend their weekend with???” Ha! Small joke I’ve heard before. I don’t believe in divorce. That’s why I’m picky about who I date. I want to be married for 50 years, holding hands out on the front porch swinging in our rocking chairs. Ahhh….one can only dream.
So back to my job, I really like it most days. But other days I don’t and am still searching for a better one. I have applied at one that I really hope I get. But we will see what God’s plan is.
God’s Plan…..hmmmm…..don’t you wish you knew what God had in store for your life. Or if you don’t believe in God….don’t you wonder what’s around the corner? You know….I think it’s just awesome to know that God directs my path and has good things in store for me. My favorite Bible verse is “For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” That’s Jeremiah 29:11
That verse gives me hope. It lets me know I don’t have to sit around worrying about my future, that God Has a Plan for me! And everyone else! Just thought I’d share that.
I went to the Extraordinary Women’s Conference at Freedom Hall last weekend. We sang this song that’s really good and I wanted to share it.
Here’s the song….
I hope that song gives you hope. God Bless!
♥
Beth
I’ll get over it though. Not gonna dwell on the “I’m single and I hate it” topic. It bores me and no one wants to hear it. So let’s try another subject.
Kids.
Do I want to have them? I need to start deciding before my eggs dry up. I don’t really know if I want to have kids!!! Does anyone else have this problem? I know I would be a great mother. One of those cool moms who doesn’t drive a MiniVan. But after working with twelve adolescent teenage boys on a daily basis, it’s really made me consider having a child. UGHH….I don’t know. I guess I’ll just wait till I get a man, then decide. You know, depending on the guy, I would have to ask myself…”Is this the man I want my kids to spend their weekend with???” Ha! Small joke I’ve heard before. I don’t believe in divorce. That’s why I’m picky about who I date. I want to be married for 50 years, holding hands out on the front porch swinging in our rocking chairs. Ahhh….one can only dream.
So back to my job, I really like it most days. But other days I don’t and am still searching for a better one. I have applied at one that I really hope I get. But we will see what God’s plan is.
God’s Plan…..hmmmm…..don’t you wish you knew what God had in store for your life. Or if you don’t believe in God….don’t you wonder what’s around the corner? You know….I think it’s just awesome to know that God directs my path and has good things in store for me. My favorite Bible verse is “For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” That’s Jeremiah 29:11
That verse gives me hope. It lets me know I don’t have to sit around worrying about my future, that God Has a Plan for me! And everyone else! Just thought I’d share that.
I went to the Extraordinary Women’s Conference at Freedom Hall last weekend. We sang this song that’s really good and I wanted to share it.
Here’s the song….
I hope that song gives you hope. God Bless!
♥
Beth
Monday, April 19, 2010
I like being fat....at least I'm happy
So I still haven't started my diet. I went and audtioned for The Biggest Loser in Nashville last month. The trip was fun, but no call back for me. Oh well. I'm over it. I know I can lose this weight if I really put forth an effort. But I really could care less right now. I like being fat. I enjoy eating whatever comes my way. Donuts at work? I'll eat 4. I buy birthday cake at Walmart when it's not even my birthday. I eat like a dregding machine. But I love it. I'm happy and am beginning to see my body in a different light. Sure I have alot of curves...in the wrong areas.....but my dating life is still good, so why fret?
So I finally joined the gym....3 weeks ago.....and it's working out pretty good. I haven't been yet, but at least I'm acutally considering going now. Since I signed a one year contract. I tend to be impulsive about purchasing things. I bought a motorcycle 2 years ago....haven't rode it yet, but i'm considering learning how.
So I'm still working at the alcohol and drug treatment center. I really like it! And that's a shocker. If you know me, then you know I don't have a good track record with jobs. I tend to get burnout and then find something else. So I am quite proud that I'm working somewhere going on 9 months!!! yay!
I'm getting back on stage this week. Gonna do a guest set at the Comedy Zone in JC. I'm excited, but nervous. Gonna try some new material. I often fantasize about my comedy career taking off and me actually having money. But I just don't foresee it happening. Oh well. I'm still gonna try and perform more. Maybe one day I can quit my day job.
I'll be 28 years old next month. Sounds so much older than 27. I wanted to be married when I was age 26, but that has never happened. I still know that God has a husband in store for me. Maybe I'm just not ready, and He is preparing me for him. I do have a lot of growing up to do. I mean for Pete's sake, my mom still comes over and does my laundry. Yeah. I'm lazy. What can i say. Maybe God is preparing the guy for me. Lord knows he's gotta be prepared to handle a bipolar girl. Yeah, I control it with meds, but still. I can still get manic or depressed. And let's just say, you have to be prepared to handle me at my worst.
So I'm trying to become content with being single. Chronically single. HA
Well, that's about all for now. I'll try to update this more often.
So I finally joined the gym....3 weeks ago.....and it's working out pretty good. I haven't been yet, but at least I'm acutally considering going now. Since I signed a one year contract. I tend to be impulsive about purchasing things. I bought a motorcycle 2 years ago....haven't rode it yet, but i'm considering learning how.
So I'm still working at the alcohol and drug treatment center. I really like it! And that's a shocker. If you know me, then you know I don't have a good track record with jobs. I tend to get burnout and then find something else. So I am quite proud that I'm working somewhere going on 9 months!!! yay!
I'm getting back on stage this week. Gonna do a guest set at the Comedy Zone in JC. I'm excited, but nervous. Gonna try some new material. I often fantasize about my comedy career taking off and me actually having money. But I just don't foresee it happening. Oh well. I'm still gonna try and perform more. Maybe one day I can quit my day job.
I'll be 28 years old next month. Sounds so much older than 27. I wanted to be married when I was age 26, but that has never happened. I still know that God has a husband in store for me. Maybe I'm just not ready, and He is preparing me for him. I do have a lot of growing up to do. I mean for Pete's sake, my mom still comes over and does my laundry. Yeah. I'm lazy. What can i say. Maybe God is preparing the guy for me. Lord knows he's gotta be prepared to handle a bipolar girl. Yeah, I control it with meds, but still. I can still get manic or depressed. And let's just say, you have to be prepared to handle me at my worst.
So I'm trying to become content with being single. Chronically single. HA
Well, that's about all for now. I'll try to update this more often.
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