I just wish these Christians that are homophobic would stop yapping and think for a minute: Do you really think we should say to gay people that their lifestyle is an abomination? Yes, I know the Bible verses. I was raised in a Southern Baptist church and participated in Bible Drill where you memorize Scripture and compete with your knowledge of the Bible. But throwing out verses for gay people to read is not going to change who they love. Some Christians are quite possibly turning people away from God and the church altogether. As Christians we should show love to EVERYONE of every color, race, and religion. I've had heated debates with Atheists that led nowhere. I've had debates with homophobics that led nowhere. Everyone has opinions. But just get over it. It is what it is. If a gay couple kissing disgusts you, then look away. If same sex marriage repulses you, don't attend or watch one. Many of these over zealous, homophobic Christians are going to be in for a big surprise when they get to Heaven. I mean seriously people...Do you think only straight people are in Heaven? Sheesh. But that's all I'm gonna say about that.
Now on to more important matters. My sex life. Or lack thereof. It's really not an important matter but I have to blog about this. Mainly because I don't have a therapy appointment until next month and I need to get this off my chest. ha.
I hadn't had sex in almost 2 years. Until Saturday night. Last year when I got out of Woodridge, I wanted to get laid so bad just to relieve stress and feel like a normal person. It almost happened with some dude I met online but it never did. Then I basically gave up and told myself I would not have sex until I fell in love and was in a relationship. Well of course that never happened. Probably because I'm not into the bar/club scene anymore and have removed all my online dating profiles. And then the lovely depression came over me where I would talk to no one but my cat and the Dominos delivery guy so I never met anyone. So I gave up on having sex and just tried not to think about it and stopped watching anything romantic on TV. I still haven't seen Fifty Shades of Grey because I would probably log on to "Casual Encounters" on Craigslist after I watched it. ha.
But isn't your "sexual peak" supposed to be in your 30s? What's a chronically single girl to do? Buy a dildo? It's not the same. You can't suck on a dildo. And that's my thing. Some people like to kiss. I like to suck dick.
But I digress....the point of all that is to pose a question to my Single friends that might read this blog. Ok I was raised that you save your virginity for your husband. The Bible says that. My grandparents waited until their wedding night. My parents waited till their wedding night. My sister waited till her wedding night. And I was determined to do the same. But as you know if you read my blog, I didn't. Oh my - the Pre-Marital sex debates I have heard. From pastors to my mom to Bible thumping friends. Yes I fell in love at 21 and had sex. But then through the years I'll go like 3 years without sex. Then finally succumb to the horniness. Then like another 2 years after that. It's horrible. I wish I was married so I could have sex every day. Because let me tell you what happened last night. I felt like a whore. Dude (a former fwb) came over, we talked for an hour or so, then went to the bedroom, did the deed, he got off, I did not, and it was done. A quick cigarette and then the "well sweetheart I gotta go." Seriously?!?!?!?! I went to the trouble of getting my va-jay-jay and butt waxed and you don't even go down there OH and after telling me to "make yourself taste good". I know this is way too much information so feel free to stop reading and I'll probably delete half of the details tomorrow but I'm kinda pissed and this is cathartic. If I suck your dick, then you should reciprocate. But me being the "sweetheart" that I am - I wasn't going to be aggressive and say, "Eat my Pussy, Fucker!" and push his head down there. haha. Wonder what reaction I would get. Anyway, I got way off topic.
The question I want to pose to my single friends who are celibate either by choice or in a situation like me is this: How do you deal with the horniness (other than masturbation)? Heck far, I could masturbate every day but something is missing. I want a hug. I want to cuddle. And caress. How does a single person deal with lack of affection? It sucks. But I know one thing....I'm not doing the booty call anymore. I thought it would be different. Hell far at least cuddle with me for one minute. At least give me time to get off too!
Anyway, I need to stop writing because it's 5:30 am and I need sleep.
And now I have to rub one out. Damn you horniness.
