I've been on a Jesus kick lately. I haven't been to church in about a year. ha. But I watch Joyce Meyer on TV and also Joel Osteen and sometimes T.D. Jakes and Creflo Dollar. That Creflo is pretty cool. He preaches on weed sometimes though and I guess I feel convicted so I don't watch him much...ha. Since getting fired from the rehab in 2013, I kinda have been a stoner. I think it's a plant and not a drug. But still....I think it would be odd if someone asked me about my relationship with God and then they find out I'm kinda a pothead. But anywho, I digress... I'll save that for my therapist.
I love church, but I don't like going alone. My mom is always telling me to go to church to meet a man. But you don't just walk up to a man after Sunday School and start flirting! Or go and sit beside some cute guy for the sermon. I've tried that...and a wife always appears out of nowhere.
I don't know. I'm content with my chronic singleness for the most part. I'll be 33 in May. That sounds so old. What if I'm 40 and still single sitting at home on a Saturday night with my cat and my weed? oh my :-/
I've been listening to more Christian music lately. I think it's cool that you can worship God at home by belting out your favorite hymns or finding worship music on YouTube. You can have church at home! I've always liked Contemporary Christian music. dC Talk was my very first concert way back in the day. I can do the whole rap in that song "Jesus Freak". I used to be a little overzealous about religion. Then in my 20s, I turned away from God for awhile. I remember I once went to church after snorting cocaine all night. I know that sounds horrible, but I remember even though I was doing drugs and around shady people, I still searched for God through the highs and lows. In the lows, it was easier to reach out to God. But in the highs, it was harder to reach out to Him because of clouded thinking and guilt I guess. But me and Jesus have a great relationship today. Since I live alone, we talk a lot. :-)
I'm really getting into that show A.D. The Bible Continues. It airs Sunday nights on NBC. I thought it might be boring like so many other realistic Bible shows in the past but it's not. I'm learning so much too and some stories I remember from Sunday School as a child. But it has made me want to read my Bible more which is good. I think we all slack a little in that area. Except my mom. She reads the Bible everyday and has a devotion. She's been doing that her whole life. She's like a Saint. I call her Saint Glenda. ha. I tried having a devotion in the morning but that lasted like 3 days. Then I tried to do it at night but I got on a Golden Girls kick and yeah...I admit I'd rather watch TV at night than read my Bible. I need to work on that. I need to work on a lot of things.
I've been thinking how amazing it is that I'm still alive. God has brought me through so many obstacles. I wish I had time to list them all. I want to finish a book I started writing years ago but I'm a procrastinator so that probably won't happen.
I shared some good worship songs on my playlist. Lauren Daigle is someone new to me. I found a bunch of her doing covers of Christian songs on YouTube and I love to sing them. The first one "Lord, I Need You" is special to me. Matt Maher and Kristian Stanfill originally did the song for a Passion Conference. It's based on one of my favorite old hymns and I think it's just wonderful. The song is special to me because I would sing it when I was in the psychiatric hospital with no hope. I would rock in bed at night and quietly sing it. Hope you all like it!
I have a lot more to say but I need to do my taxes. See, I'm a total procrastinator! ha.
If you know of any cool worship songs or Contemporary Christian songs, please share in the comments. I love finding new songs to add to my Worship music playlist on YouTube. Ciao!
